So clearly you have guessed I still am smoking…. Like jeeezz I really being that ghetto to my health and as much as I am trying to quit, it’s not working… So if notta changes then I had to make some changes. Bought one and picked White Grape Icy, going to stick to one, it Read more

I Love this!! What a little sentence that packs a punch! No one is Perfect, and who’s definition are we going along with anyways? Lol… I have always been insecure and can pick everything about myself apart… I definitely know I am not the only one that does this…!! I do go a little extreme Read more

I am not sure why but my pain is a 12/10 which makes my days lately a little harder to fake, that things are all peachy! When all I envision is tossing throat punches out like I got a union job and celebrating! Lol… My throat is so riddled with nasty stuff that it’s been Read more

I keep struggling with changing my appointments they sometimes in morning or afternoon random time, an takes my whole day up… which sucks as my energy levels are not there at all… so mornings is what I aim for as rest of the day to pretend I don’t have cancer!! If that makes sense! Lol… Read more

This rings sooo freak’n True..!!! The problem is I don’t particularly like Change! Lol…. So sometimes I find myself with the back up against the wall feeling, but I’ve realized I need some healthy change!! Accepting the fact I needed my feeding tube was huge for me, I tried to ignore it but when my Read more

Funny how being judged weighs so heavy in so many people… either some admit to this or some don’t. I’ve struggled with this all my life, some shake their heads and wonder why… but I can’t give a straight why… just it roots are huge and very destructive. Getting Cancer I didn’t know what really Read more

It’s Friday people….. yayyyy..!! My yoyo Up and Down moods are lifting!! Maybe its because its Friday, maybe I just needed a few days of quiet. Either way I am grateful for waking up and thanking God for another day! I also put on a new outfit which always helps to feel good fake it Read more

I been struggling with losing my patience and though I’ve been trying to keep my distance from people, I still am human and have lost it a few times. Of course I apologize and end up feeling horrible, I sometimes feel as if I am not being heard still. I struggle with depression and lately Read more

I try to be positive but my days lately are just that …. getting harder … being sick is starting to affect my moods because of the pain. People don’t realize I am in pain 24/7 it’s literally subdued with my pain meds which I am so grateful for but this week the pain is Read more

The funny part of if being a worry wort, it can start the moment you open your eyes even before your morning cup of coffee… How rude…!! Lol…. I honestly over think things and stress over it, having tools to try and realize if you can’t change the situation right then or can u not Read more