This rings sooo freak’n True..!!! The problem is I don’t particularly like Change! Lol…. So sometimes I find myself with the back up against the wall feeling, but I’ve realized I need some healthy change!! Accepting the fact I needed my feeding tube was huge for me, I tried to ignore it but when my weight went down to 108 I looked in the mirror and honestly was scared to think it could get worse!! So learning I had covid on top of it all, I had some changing to do and fast. I can proudly state I have gained lots back well enough for the team at Sunnybrook to be extremely happy with me. 76 Gold stars for me…!!! Lolol… The feeding tube now was such a smart decision though ended up in hospital for 6 days over it… VuT.. now its a Game Changer!! I sit here and pause and can’ t explain how against I was over it, and how now its helping me fight this Cancer!! I need to do more pausing, I think we All could… to remember to celebrate the small things that we didn’t even realize was a huge moment. The mere thought had me cringing! Lol… Some Change I am realizing isn’t so bad.. I didn’t even think I could add anything else onto my schedule because I am always so tired! It drives me nutz.. with daily radiation at Sunnybrook my days revolve around that everyday like some effin ground hog Day .. movie. I can’t complain though this last week I have had pretty crazy early appointments 7:50am I figured I up anyways at 4am ,… omgaaaa I drooled in cab like All care out the effin window… mortifying!! Lol….But I made some new taxi friends and blessed to have gotten to know them. Life can seem so Big but …at times it also can feel so small… Here’s to embracing a few changes!!