Finally now getting on a routine with my schedule, today is my Chemo and radiation, the Power Team duo that kicks me in the ass!! I realized that I have gotten through most of this without over thinking things and purposely not asking more questions, simply on a need to know basis, which I wouldn’t have been able to do without My Momsie and Muma!! ( My Mom and Step Mom) I have been Soo Blessed with all their help with taking over listening to what needs to be done etc. Now that I know what to do I decided to give them a break and for myself to build my own mental strength back, I opt to go alone. It’s the longest of the appointments and sitting in a chair with yucky IV lines which continuously beep… I swear I move and the machine beeps and nurse has to come and assess it… after the 5th stop I remind them that the veins they were complimenting earlier are the same ones that is doing this lol… I get some funny looks… haha depends on the nurse too! lolol…. Giving the parents a much deserved break But also I want to know I can do it. I don’t have much in my life that I can control when it comes to having Cancer, so having some tools to feel I am getting back to somewhere is actually huge to me…. But I won’t lie, it’s a day that is draining and leaves me feeling like i been dragged behind a transport and no anti lock brakes can help this chica out!! VuT… I read Even flowers go through some dirt and sh*t. Keep blooming Baby!! So today wish me luck… VuT… I know I got this!!