My girlfriend sent me a Bestie care package from Australia and inside one of the things is this container “Listen B*tch” cards, for days when you need to hear a Tone.. read a Tone, to remind yourself, you truly do Got This..!! This is soo True, for Everyone..!!! I can’t believe how much I needed Read more

So I finally remembered my list of things I needed to buy today, not only did I bring it but read x2d and somehow managed to miss case of water that is essential to my feeding tube process… Grrr…. Lol Just when u think I got this and Nope…… I clearly took a break and Read more

Is something I try to Be…. not just do. When people say there are stages that I will be feeling, I honestly can’t say I know what to think, as there is many personalities that might just be popping up too!!! Totally joking!! Lol… I definitely know that the no sleeping has taken a toll Read more

This week started off with many emotions and yesterday I felt extremely overwhelmed. I was letting little things pile up and make more of an impact on my day then I should’ve. I tend to feel everyone’s feelings and been called an “empath” which when under your own stress sometimes you fall short with attending Read more

The saying if you have nothing nice to say, don’t say nothing at all….. has proven to be difficult for me today.. Am I so good at this auto pilot mode, faking it till you make it, that even the closest of people at times in my circle don’t seem to see how lost I Read more

What a true statement!! Finding out that I have cancer was something that I hope no one hears themselves! I know many people have said that it shouldn’t be “You”!! I know they’re not wishing it on someone else… just simply wishing that this wasn’t true! I came to terms with it I think the Read more

It’s funny how some things can seem so simple and yet other times it feels as if my legs, arms, and mind is stuck in quick sand slowly getting sucked down!! I am so struggling with Not eating and only using my G Tube( feeding tube) Why can’t I just follow the steps and not Read more

What a feeling…. to finally be getting somewhere, is… just amazing!! The day couldn’t have went better! One, it was a Friday…. yesterday and only had one appointment!! Home by noon, almost made me feel my life had some normalcies again!! My sister came with me, she is wanting to take pics to look back Read more

Today was a full day for me, leaving by 6 am to start my chemo and then radiation. Even though my body is exhausted, Today my heart is soo full..!! I’m seriously trying to always find a positive, no matter the day and I do Believe it’s helping me face sometimes those harder days. My Read more

One thing about struggling with anxiety and depression, you waste a lot of your time “over thinking’ “over analyzing” things. Then finding out I have stage 4 throat cancer, TIME…….. Ahhhh… seemed wasn’t on my side! Suddenly, my time was filled with so many appointments, expected to be listening and also attaining the information…. I Read more