I wish I could fake the fact that my head is a yoyo at the moment. My emotions are Up and Down, I be polite to society and leave my home only when I am feeling Happy, I stay home so I don’t share my moods w others, and yet I feel like I can never be left the f#*k alone. Theres always someone w a sad story that I somehow have to be involved in… like where is the old me that use to never blink and be there for the endless amount of people if needed me?! I want to crawl in my bed and say F@*k it to the daily appointments, stop trying to appease everyone, with the endless suggestions or opinions. I just want to be left alone! I am tired… I really have hit my limit and its turning me into a person that I don’t know. I never have wanted people to leave me alone… to be surrounded by no one. Not even my dog, who I try endlessly to help him w his pain and try and make up for the shitty past he had before me and I have to always be on guard never let it down, and that simply hurts more than I think I have ever said. I defend so many people yet I feel I get judged at all angles, but of course still loved! So how can one really say much about it. I guess I am just overwhelmed, and what is a blog for if its not meant to share…. Hope everyone is doing great…. I am a happy person, I just struggle with my down times, and need sometime from my Life if that makes sense… HyHo Hyho..Look forward to Monday!! LoL