I am on this positive Vibes only … wanting to put all Good Energy Out to the world!! Just at times when is it ok to simply say this is All really scary!! To let the it is wha it is vibe down too.. Here it leaves me feeling very vulnerable and freaked the fuk out!! No wonder everyone is saying Sorry…. it’s Death! You’re in a place to fight for more time…. Right now I definitely have been on autopilot mode bcuz it was the only way to get through this and to have the help from my Family, I wouldn’t have been able to do this! To be sitting and waiting while your just trying to deal with the pain and mucus, I stopped to think what is next… Tests and to find out what is next… Hoping for what probably Every other person has Hoped for… Cancer is Gone. But what if not… I will let myself wonder and feel it for a minute or two… and put myself in autopilot mode and carry on and not think of the things I can’t change. Only would make me Krazzzyyy…!! Lol….. So right now when people wonder what I am doin… I am trying to live a life that I just don’t know the Time on it.. and I would like to know… VuT…I got this…. I’m going to continue w Positivity, Love and Strength… I can’t change anything just live the healthiest possible right now so on that note I am going to go and start my feeding… Lol All my juices and concoctions I have to feed in belly tube. So wishing Everyone Eats a bloody Burger or something Yummy…. for me!! Haha