Good Morning Everyone, well today I am feeling a bit better Yayyy…!! My fever broke Thank Goodie late last night… Mom and Mellee came late afternoon, and thankfully Melanie spent night to help me. Funny how when you’re sick you don’t even realize how not on point you’re… I didn’t take my meds which after months of being in a routine of taking, one would think I’d notice not taking them for an entire day … VuT,.. nope! Cancelled my appointments for today down in city… This is my last week for radiation, another Yayyyy….. little freaked out how much pain I am in, they want me to get a CADD, where a little machine is hooked up to my body and automatically disperses pain meds. I wish they would listen to me and stop trying to push it on me. I understand that it would let me sleep through nights, but I don’t sleep through the nights anyways… Also its the same amount that I am taking which I am always in pain, so why would I want to get some machine installed in me?! I think after declining it the amount of times I have it’s just getting annoying!! It scares me to think how long after, is this going to hurt this much?! I honestly have tried to be positive and up beat throughout this journey and getting sick this weekend has made me a little grunchie! I definitely always apologize when I become negative and short I really noticed that people don’t do it back, lol Even having cancer they don’t… Maybe bcuz I am sick, but I am a little more sensitive with my feelings and lately when mine get hurt its taken as if I have cancer and hyper sensitive and just move on… Unfair pops to mind… just saying… Lol Hope every dodges these germs… and have an amazing Monday!!