Is something I try to Be…. not just do. When people say there are stages that I will be feeling, I honestly can’t say I know what to think, as there is many personalities that might just be popping up too!!! Totally joking!! Lol… I definitely know that the no sleeping has taken a toll on me and this Gurl needs her sleep… I don’t want to become short and just because I am sick gives me an excuse to behave poorly towards others. But what does it mean when faced with dealing with people who don’t seem to understand me.. the frustration that I can feel sucks, losing your voice at a time where you’re surprised to even have these things pop up in your relationships is sad… Someone told me that maybe I don’t see it that people can be missing the me who had all the time and patience, and in that it self can make people change and act differently. I wish that they could see though that I am still trying to be me, I just fighting hard to play this part Fake it Till You Make it!! If we dwell on negative, you soon start seeing it everywhere… I am going to start really taking note of what my boundaries are, to make being mindful and thoughtful come easy still, no matter the day I am given. Nothing changes if nothing changes… So I aim to only make Good changes… and Do the right by others, and Hope that God will continue to give me the strength I feel I am lacking. Week 4 is down… who knew I would be here writing a blog, G Tube in my belly (Austen Powers pops to mind!!) lol… fighting for my life… that end part sounds so dramatic… but the more I am dealing with this, it is exactly that… If I don’t do this my throat is almost given up and a hole was the it thing to do but wasn’t for me.. I still find myself saying Omgaaa… when can I go tanning.. wondering why I am not freaking out that I am way past my Botox ?!? lol… One thing I have to say is I love that being so tired I couldn’t focus on the superficial things… Felt good to realize I didn’t think before I got dressed what someone would think of it …. Learning to be Mindful and Thoughtful to yourself is Key to finding True Inner Happiness within ourselves and that I won’t give up on!! My heart and prayers go out to Everyone who is going through similar things, and even if not sick … positive Love Vibes your way too!! Namaste…