It’s funny how some things can seem so simple and yet other times it feels as if my legs, arms, and mind is stuck in quick sand slowly getting sucked down!! I am so struggling with Not eating and only using my G Tube( feeding tube) Why can’t I just follow the steps and not rebel and continue to push myself backwards!!? To finally get where I am … Not in hospital, 3 weeks done with treatment, and yet I still struggling to quit smoking and eating food…. which I am not suppose to !! The feeling of not being on point makes it harder as I know its not right and isn’t helping my lung infections which I am getting from eating! Today is not the perfect day realizing how much I still need to do and grow, and yet the treatment is only 4 more weeks (usually I wouldn’t say only 4 weeks) But the importance of these weeks is crucial and I need to get on the same page…. Wish me luck…..